Today was tough on me. I quit breastfeeding. I know that doesn't sound like a horrible thing, but emotionally, it has taken a toll on me. I struggled with keeping my supply up, but unfortunately, my baby doesn't latch. I visited with the lactation specialist like three times. I bought two different pumps, and one was really good, but I still didn't produce as much as I had previously. Then, I found out that my precious little Eden is allergic. :( Thennn, I figured out it was too hard to pump every 2 hours when Seth was at work, and I was taking care of her alone. I guess I feel a little guilty, because I wanted to be the mom that breastfed for 8 months, etc., but God has a different plan for us. I prepared for months to breastfeed, and I knew all the benefits for her health. I read blogs, and I even bought books on it. It is just hard to give up something that you feel might benefit your baby, but if she is allergic, then she is allergic. Gahhhh. At least she got the colostrum (sp?). I know that is very beneficial. Plus, she got three weeks almost of milk.
I am very thankful that she is doing better on her nutramigen. She hasn't been fussy at all. She even slept good last night. I get to spend a lot more time with her now that I am not a slave to the pump, and it isn't like she knows the difference. It is just mommie that feels let down by the whole situation.
Well, I hear her waking up. So, I have to go. :) Time for Eden kisses!
Danielle, don't beat yourself up. My sister was the same way. Her son was born 6 weeks pre-mature and he always spit up her milk. She had to go to formula from the get go. I love your blog site! Enjoy your next 3 weeks with her!!
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